Time to Bid farewell.

I am going to take down my blogdrive.

It's been such an amazing time having this running, if you've been reading this since the start, you will pretty much know what has happened in my life for this past year or so. It's been an amazing year, went through alot, ups and lows, all the joys, all the tears, all the laughs and everything. But it all must come to an end for now.

Much have hapened. I just need time to renew myself, my goals in life, my aims, and get my life back on track. I'll be back though! :D have hope&faith my friends, for God knows our paths may will cross again someday.

Only God knows how much I love you.

until next time
TAKE CARE!!

xoxo. much love!

Gone for a while.

Song Listening: Hillsong United- From the inside out
Feeling: confused
Craves: things to be better.

Few weeks ago i had an emotional breakdown, i turned to Steve, he told me a story about a guy losing his wife and 2 daughters within 2 days time. The man faced with 2 choices, 1) Pretend it never happened and live in darkness, 2) Face the reality so afterwards he can look back to all the memories happily. Steve told me the man chose 2), the man took out all the photos and videos of the wife and daughters, and went through all them slowly, one by one, he cried and cried. Afterwards he finally can look at those memories with feeling depress anymore, so the reward is that he can hold onto those memories.

I never had the guts to do that, i've always hide in shame. But today, i sat steady on my chair, and watched the funeral once again, and now i know, i can look back at everything, including this past few months without a tear. It's another part of growing up.

Much happened this weekend, like most of the time, the truth hurts, but it's ok, i will learn from the mistakes. But i shall be gone for a while, going to spend the coming few days or maybe week to redeem myself. To look at the problems and maybe for once, face it, and find a solution instead of putting it aside.

I'll be back my friends. until next time - take care.

xoxo. much love.

AWESOME YOUTH!!

Song Listening: N/A
Feeling: tired
Craves: not laggy net

Youth tonight was AWESOME!! Was such a good night, everyone brought someone with them :D another person was saved! CONGRATZ KEVIN!! :D hehe. there's some photos but right now i cbb to upload them too tired xD The night went a tad messy as the DVD player wouldnt work, the food was all eww, the drinks and everything, posters didnt hang up at the beginning, curtins idea was gone HAHA BUT WE GOT THERE!! :D

Since Mike the bf's car was FULL tonight *glares @ Su!! hehe, mike the cousin took me home :D not a bad driver he is for a red P :D getting there!! :D hehe. thanks for the lift.

anyways im so tired it's not funny!! nights!! <3 the youth

xoxo. much love!!

wootwootwoot

Song Listening: Hillsong United- Came to Rescue
Feeling: tired
Craves: tomorrow night :D

had a very late night (well compared to my usual bedtime) due to some stupid family problems, it all began with taping a show on tv. not gona go into much detailed but lets just say it had nothing to do with me (FOR ONCE HAHA) but it was childish.

so rocked up to school half dead tired esp with physics first up. was so hard keeping awake. oh did i mention my engineering report ended up being 9 pages long? :D man i am good at blahhing on :D

maybe i should chuck a party or something. idk. it just seems my life is soo..hmmm..wouldn't say boring, but it sure aint a typical teenager's life! LOL. not that i mind much, but i wouldnt mind some harmless fun! hehe. though i dont think i will be getting back to my old habits and bum around parra or drink up or idk. haha better not go into much detail :P

i can't wait till tomorrow night!! :D <3 the youth so much!! :D

xoxo. much love!!

boohoo.

Song Listening: Hillsong Kids- Rainbow
Feeling: OK.
Craves: an engineer brain ><

Alrights, yesterday i was FULL confident about my accomplished engineering report. BOOM. take all that back >< my sister keep telling me i don't have enough information, which is true, cause it's only 1280 words approx. and we ae looking at around 3000 words? idk :X. *Cries so now i am going through the whole report adding bits and pieces to it.

Still got 2 legal essays waiting for me to accomplish today or tomorrow..since friday youth CG @ parra townhall!! COME ALONE EVERYONE :D hehe. Black & white movie night, 7:30pm!! ask for more details :D. then sat MUwhaha secret, and sunday church, i really want to go to mains this sunday :(  haven't been there since last year :O gooshhhh...

you know what i haven't done for as long as i remember? i haven't been to a slamming party for soooo long. LOL. or just a hang out, but idk. meh....

xoxo. much love!!

countdown!!

Song Listening: Hillsong United- From God Above
Feeling: ok
Craves: hmm dk. xD

2 days till engineering report due.
3 days till business assignment part1 due.
3 days till FIRST HCC YOUTH SERVICE!! :D
5 days till church again1! *WOOT love it :D s2
6 days till legal essays due.
9 days till cross country and walkathon for Lauren Huxley.

that's good enough :D

boring boring

Song Listening: Hillsong united we stand- The stand
Feeling: Alrights.
Craves: motivation to finish engineering report off -.-

soon i'm gona make a new rule for my room, NO EATING OR DRINKING in my room -.-" my keyboard and table is all sticky from someone's drink...probably mike's beer or something I DONT KNOW..its EWWW >< and i cbb to clean it for now xD

anyways MAths ext this mornig was ok, i was the first there :D i feel good buwhahaha. typical school day, nothing special. meh boring entry BYE!!

www.hopefaith.blogdrive.com is updated for those who reads it. :)

xoxo. much love!!

United we stand!!

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hmm all the youths are @ hills church right now, oh wells im having my very own worship and praise at home xD xD xD haha. finishing off engineering report and singing to the new CD. you know what song just came up on my media player? fire fall down. that's the song that ended the first main church service i went to last year with michael. when mike was over this arvo listening to the song, i let out a chuckle (he called me crazy..cause i was laughing in joy -.-") ..haha memories..how much have i changed ever since i've been with that mister? thank him sooooooOOoOoO much for it :D cause baby, i am loving every bit! involvement with church is making my life feel fulfilling. though im not really involving much YET..hopefully soon!! :D :D

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Song Listening: Hillsong UNITED WE STAND!!- Take it all
Feeling: hot
Craves: some nice food around the house

After phoning with wendyy lastnight went straight to bed..ever so tired!! >< got up at 7:30am like every other sunday for church. BOUGHT THE NEW CD UNITED WE STAND!! :D GOOD GOOD GOOD HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY. haha u should hear me sing..i sing like michael..talk abt influence :P

though one thing, i dont like this verison of take it all..not hypo enough..=/  oh wells the rest are good!! :D

the weather is bugging me again..so hot >.< was gona go to mains tonight, but due to transport n yeah probs hehe decided not to. which si alright since im pretty tired and suppose to finish of engineering report (not happening by the look of it) and maths ext STARTS AT OMGOSH 7:30am!! TOMORROW MORNING T.T which means i have to get up at 6 something. omgosh so sleeping early tonight no matter what.

xoxo. much love!!

LOnerrr!!

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i told ya mike's an angel sent from above, he once again saved me from boredem :D took me out to parra for food (WHICH IS WOOHOO CAUSE I WAS STARVING) then guess what? he bought me a new 3 phone!!!! :D:D:D:D:D now darlings, that's what u call love :P don't get jealous so quickly *stares at wendyy* buwhaha.

introducing you to my new mobile (so i dont need ot use my handfrees anymore cause my ex mobile's speakers broke), LG U880 (YES THE PINK ONE PEOPLE!!)

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Song Listening: Hillsong live- Wonderful God
Feeling: LONER HAHA
Craves: someone to entertain me...MIKE?! BEE?! ANYONE?

HAHA what a loner i am on a saturday ROFL. everyone's either out working or partying or just plain outta their house!! AND WHAT AM I DOING?! nothing!!&$*#$ bumming on net ROFL. gosh i am sad HAHAh.

guess i should start my engineering report then..since just received 2 (?) new essays for legal studies ROFL GREAT!! :D:D if anyone want to visit me today..FEEL FREE TO :D:D ANYTIME!! LOL. well i will be at home ALLLL day long by the look of it atm LMAO. hmmmmm..bye!!

xoxo. much love!!!

friday friday friday

Song Listening: Hillsong Live- Salvation is Here
Feeling: good.
Craves: nothing.

wow it's friday already. this week's gone FAST i tell ya :P anyways, tonight i got Youth CG, tomorrow is a home day finishing off assignments..well actually starting assignments :P Sunday is church day :D going to mains that night too!! *woot going to buy the new hillsong united cd. united we stand? yeah that. :D can't wait!!

someone with a private number just called me..DAMN U!! i thought it was something important or something..i got a face mask on atm!! -.-" made me move my face muscles to talk :P awww..

xoxo. much love!!